"This Suffering State"
"A lot of SEEING is really HEARING, and feeling ..."
Stevie Wonder (to Oprah Winfrey), 2004
Tuesday, June 10th 2004
Have an appointment in Halifax at 3:00pm which I am going to be late for, it seems! By the looks of it, I may be as much as a whole half hour late - and for the second time ... I am so not amused, but what can I do?
Leaving home at about 2:30, I walked all the way to the bus terminal, hoping to burn some calories. Half-way there I realize that I forgot to eat something. It is a warm day and I am wearing what I call my "Star Trek bridge" synthetic top. As well, got on my thing summer jacket, starting to sweat a little (being "fat" is definitely a problem!)
Oh, it is such a lovely day. Summer seems to have arrived, finally.
Turns out I was twenty minutes late for my doctor's appointment. Three more hours and I am told he would have been gone ...!
The doc and I covered a lot of conversational ground today. Things such as: my lack of a social life and suggestions on how to rectify the situation. Nothing earth shattering though.
Back on the Halifax bus, on Barrington Street, on-route back home to MON. Thought I saw an acquaintance of an acquaintance walking the street, but he is supposed to be on vacation in Germany ...
How do I rectify this great LONELINESS in my life now? No man is an Island ... No man is an Island.
9:30pm. I am on the lonely bus home and there is an "obvious" gay brunette guy sitting across from me of the ilk I would have NEVER ever considered in my Toronto days. He is probably too young anyway. They all seem to be, these days. Desperation setting in?
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Tuesday, June 15, 2004
- Compile a book of "Everything I've Learned"
- Write myself a movie to star in! Showcase my artistic strengths
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Day at the library. Rather nice. Got a little bit accomplished. It is 8:57pm and I am aboard the bus on route to home. By now I am tired, hungry, and a whole lot fed-up; frustrated. Why? well, no computer of my own, after all this time!!! My own fault, for true, but how long do we have to pay for our past transgressions?
